One Year

So today it's exactly a year since I asked Samuel to be my boyfriend, and luckely he said yes. It's so hard to grip it's already been a year, and at the same time it feels odd it's only been a year since it feels like I've known Samuel for so much longer. He's so insainly good to me, I've never been treated this good in a relationship. He builds me up, like I'm still a complete mess don't get me wrong but Samuel has helped a lot in how I feel about myself. Compared to my confidence back before we started dating vs now is just, I feel a lot better in my own skin. Compared to the person I was involved with before who broke me down, Samuel builds me up.
Gosh how I adore this boy, and gosh how I miss him. We've been apart for almost two months now, fortunately it's only three weeks left until I'm seeing him again. I've had this countdown on my phone since the day we said goodnight(didn't allow him to say goodbye, because goodbye could last forever) and today it's only 19 days - I didn't expect distance to be this hard.. | until next time, stay safe. Lots of love, Anna ♡

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until next time, stay safe. Lots of love, Anna ♡

the last day..

So today's the final day at home, tomorrow at 8 in the morning I'll leave. It's so weird to think, like I'm moving away from home - like properly. It's 4½ hours away, so it's not like I could come home just for lunch, next time I'll be in my childhood home is over Christmas in two months. I feel ready, however that might change in two weeks when I really miss my father or something, gosh how I'm going to miss the cats haha. And Samuel, I went to his on friday last week and got home on Tuesday evening. I spent most of those five days crying because I'm going to miss him so much, like we haven't gone more than like 2½ weeks without each other for almost a year now. When I was just about to leave and he was about to say goodbye I didn't let him, like goodbye can be forever. So instead we said goodnight, a bit silly but so am I so I'm guessing that's fair enough. 
Today didn't start too good, mother and I had a bit of a fight but that's all sorted out now. I'm sat in the chair in the livingroom and she's in the kitchen baking some cinnomonbuns, it's cosy. I'm trying to draw on my tablet as well since I've been so stressed for the last two weeks to even think about drawing but it's almost as if my hands can't remember how to function. 
Another note is that earlier this week the school that I'm attending sent over some picutres of two dorm rooms that I'll get to choose between. I think I've decided which room to go for but I'll do the final decicion when I've actually seen the rooms in person. It feels nice, it looks like the avarge winter cabin which is so bloody adorable I can't hande it. I'm so excited to finally study again but it's also really scary. I know I'll do fine because I'm so much stronger now, but I know it's gonna be hard. 
until next time, stay safe. Lots of love, Anna ♡